The light changed. She accelerated and rounded the corner. It was early morning on a blustery, cold
March Saturday. She was still somewhat
resentful that she had been deprived of sleeping in on her first day of Spring
Break. Who in their right mind has an
early morning birthday party? These
thoughts she kept to herself. She didn’t
want to put a damper on her son’s excitement.
Her mind wandered to other things – mundane, everyday things. Cars passed, buildings passed. She was grateful she was in her warm car with
the heat turned on and the seat warmers blasting. This thought had just crossed her mind when
she passed the bus stop. Gathered there
that cold, cold morning were a small group of scraggly strangers – waiting. A gust of wind pushed the car slightly
towards them. As she sped by she saw the
woman. Just an ordinary woman – a bit
heavyset, blond hair, jeans, sneakers.
She held what looked to be a cup of coffee. A light windbreaker provided her the only
defense against the wind and cold. As
the car passed, the woman raised her eyes heavenward and heaved a visible sigh.
That one
moment captured the driver’s attention, focusing all her thoughts on this lone
woman waiting for a bus that could not come fast enough. As the driver continued her journey across
town a barrage of thoughts stunned her.
Who was this woman? Why on earth
wasn’t she dressed better for a day like this?
She must be so very cold. She was
obviously weary already – and the day had barely begun. Where could she be going? Perhaps home from a night shift, or perhaps
on her way to work. Maybe even on her
way to a second job. The woman got the
distinct feeling that this lady HAD to ride the bus – she had no
alternative. She could not just hop into
her gas-filled car with its leather seats and working heater. She could not grab a heavy coat, scarf, hat
and gloves to shield her from the elements.
She seemed to be doing the best she could, but part of a hard life was
having to wait for the bus, no matter the weather. It seemed routine. But today it seemed almost more than she
could bear.
This deeply saddened the
driver. Did she have children? Where were they? Home with a father? At a relative’s home? Had she dropped them off as some daycare so
she could go to a menial job on the weekend?
Would she do the same again tomorrow?
And the next day…..?
The figure of this lady stayed with
the driver all day. It got her thinking
about all the nameless people she drove by or walked by or stood in line behind
or lived near who led such very different lives from hers. Who struggled for the basics while she never
gave these a second thought. Who worked
so hard, but had so little while she complained about needing more. These invisible people who were overlooked by
most of the world – but who were just as important, who each had their own
story to tell. How could she continue to
complain? What right did she have? How could she continue to ignore them? How could she make a difference? What other invisible people were there whom
she encountered each day? Were there any
in her classroom? School? What more could she do besides being grateful
for all the blessings in her life? That
seemed selfish. She wasn’t quite sure
how to help. Small steps, she told
herself. Start somewhere. She vowed to try to become more aware of
those around her as a start. Pay
attention. Don’t overlook. Be kind.
Be patient. Offer a smile. Continue to be grateful. Be understanding. Practice love. A tall order… even this first step. Could it be done?
Quote for the day: How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world. ~Anne Frank
This is a very beautiful piece of writing. The contrast of the warmth of the car and the cold of the bus stop, then showing the wonderings and inner thoughts of the driver, and finishing with the question "What more could she do?" helps me to see a change in a character in just three paragraphs. It may be fiction but based on your previous posts I can feel you in here.
ReplyDeleteYou have listed solid advice that is not easy to follow when you have turmoil within yourself. As you said: small steps.
Take care of yourself,
Terje